So, two days ago, I was away from home and I got about 5-1/2 hours of sleep. Not good. Not great. I had a business function to attend all day, and by the end of the day I was struggling to just keep my eyes open. I crashed on the bus ride back to my car, and after getting a quick cup of coffee, I barely made it home in one piece — this was in rush hour traffic, too, which was a nightmare.
When I got home, I went right to bed, and slept from 6:30 p.m. till almost 3:30 a.m. – close to 9 hours straight. Beauty. But I’m still behind on my sleep time, so while it’s encouraging that I was able to sleep through for that long, the thrill is tempered with a little realism.
Anyway, it’s a new day, and I have another long one in front of me. I’ve got some late meetings today, so I won’t be through with this until 10 p.m. tonight, which is a little problematic. Oh, well – it’s all in the line of duty, and I won’t have to do this for much longer, anyway. I’m leaving in another couple of months, so I’m down to 8 more weeks that I *have* to do this. After that, I’m moving on. I have 8 weeks to really hone my skills, remember what it is about this work that I love, and to focus on that very intently. I need to keep my focus on what is important to me, not all the constant distractions that people throw in front of me to get my attention. It’s juvenile and head-trippy, and it just tells me that they’re not very well in their own heads.
If I can just keep focused on my own work and my own priorities, I can make it through. But if I let the head trips get to me, then I’m sunk.
And that will never do.
This morning when I got up, I did not do my morning breathing. I didn’t do it yesterday, either. I need to fix that. So, I shall. I’ll do a little sitting and breathing, and do my best to stretch. The business function yesterday was a physically rigorous team-building exercise, and I’m sore. So, I think I got my exercise yesterday to offset any I’m not getting today. I feel like I need to relax and recover more today, so I’m less concerned with getting my strenuous exercise quota. I don’t want to hurt myself over this.
Anyway, the day is waiting. There’s always something that seems to get in my way, but with the right attitude, I can focus on what’s most important to me and just get on with my life. I need to spend a little time, each day, focusing on what’s most important to me, and doing a little bit of that, to keep my skills and interests up. I also need to refine my descriptions of what I’m doing with myself each day, so when the time comes to start interviewing, I can speak well and at length about what it is I do, and why it matters to me.
Every experience has something to offer me – it’s my choice what I focus on. And today, I’m choosing the positive. On purpose.
Just checking to see if my gravatar was working. Left a comment earlier buy I’m not sure if it posted correctly. In short, reading your blog is like looking at a mirror. Thank you.
You’re very welcome. It’s times like this when I realize (again and again) that we are really not alone. There are so many of us dealing with these same kinds of things, feeling isolated and abandoned — I’m no stranger to that. I woke up today feeling that way, in fact. So thanks for your words. Hope you enjoy the day.