Getting up early…

I’ve been having some issues with waking up early, again. I’ve been waking up at 3 a.m. and 4 a.m. and 5 a.m. Sometimes on the same day, sometimes in the same week. If I can sleep till 7:00, it’s a miracle. 5:00 a.m. seems to be the magic hour, these days. I’ll wake up and lie there, hoping I’ll go back to sleep… then after half an hour of just lying there, I’ll decide to just get up and get moving – do something constructive with my time and energy, other than ruminating.

It helps to move. And then later, if I manage things properly, I can have a nap. Which helps.

I think the stress of finding work hasn’t helped. I find that I get “beside myself” with concern over making ends meet, and then I have trouble relaxing… and staying asleep.

But any kind of stress will do it. Health issues, logistics, you name it. It can and will wake me up. And unless I can get my head around a solution and a plan for later, I’ll be UP.

Author: brokenbrilliant

I am a long-term multiple (mild) Traumatic Brain Injury (mTBI or TBI) survivor who experienced assaults, falls, car accidents, sports-related injuries in the 1960s, '70s, '80s, and '90s. My last mild TBI was in 2004, but it was definitely the worst of the lot. I never received medical treatment for my injuries, some of which were sports injuries (and you have to get back in the game!), but I have been living very successfully with cognitive/behavioral (social, emotional, functional) symptoms and complications since I was a young kid. I’ve done it so well, in fact, that virtually nobody knows that I sustained those injuries… and the folks who do know, haven’t fully realized just how it’s impacted my life. It has impacted my life, however. In serious and debilitating ways. I’m coming out from behind the shields I’ve put up, in hopes of successfully addressing my own (invisible) challenges and helping others to see that sustaining a TBI is not the end of the world, and they can, in fact, live happy, fulfilled, productive lives in spite of it all.

6 thoughts on “Getting up early…”

  1. I just stumbled across your blog. I applaud your efforts to reach out and try to educate some of the world about TBI. As I suffered a stroke last year at the young age of 37, I empathize with your frustration about family and friends not understanding your broken brain. It is very difficult for people to accept that which they cannot see with tangible evidence. And, from my experience, I have come to realize that people are much more accepting of physical disabilities than they are of cognitive or mental disabilities.

    I wish you luck in your continuing journey of instrospection, self-discovery, self-acceptance, and personal growth. I invite you to read my blog, where I have written about my recent experience having and recovering from a stroke, which of course is another form of brain injury.

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  2. I am a neuropsychology student working at a VA and am doing a dissertation on differentiating PTSD from mild TBIs in examining test profiles. I would like to hear the experiences of OIF/OEF vets who have:

    1) experienced blast related mild TBI
    2) carry a PTSD diagnosis with no mild TBI
    3) carry a PTSD diagnosis with a mild TBI

    please comment back to this page or reach me at heyanka@nova.edu

    Thanks for everything!!

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  3. i sincerely hope your employment situation is working out better. as one surviving in this nation with tbi, i can relate and empathize. good luck.

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  4. Wendy –

    Thanks for the note! I visited your blog, and I can relate to your job situation a bit. I am in the process of looking into alternative work — that will allow me to take naps in the middle of the day, or as I really need them, rather than being “chained to my cubicle” as it were.

    Good luck with your changing path!

    BB

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