I had a good session with my New Therapist (NT) today. They say I seem to be doing really well, and I’ve really turned around my feelings about work and my ability to deal with the stress, with “lightning speed”.
I guess that’s gratifying… I almost question it, however. No… wait. I don’t question it. I have come to terms with a lot of difficulty in a really short time, and it feels good.
Now, if I can get my head together around my neurologist…
Basically, I’ve been seeing a new neuro for some other issues I’ve been having, but they’re proving to be less logistically helpful, and they seem to think that my difficulties are psychological.
Ah, yes… that again.
I suspect — if I turn out to get a regular neuro at all — I’ll end up going to someone with a whole lot more familiarity with TBI than this one. I’m still looking for someone who can help me with the neurological aspects of my situation, but I’m not getting much support, either from the medical community or my partner and some of my friends, who would just love it if I just let all this diagnostic stuff drop.
And to be honest, I probably would, too.
It’s all well and good to observe myself regularly for signs of things that need fixing, but sometimes a person just needs to get on with life.
Lookit — It’s Memorial Day weekend. The sun is out, the skies are blue, the trees and grass and all the living things are just exploding with life. Why spend all my free time sitting around contemplating my issues?
Okay, so I get what Give Back Orlando is all about – watching yourself regularly to identify head injured moments and do something to address them. But I’ve been doing that for quite some time, and at some point, I just need to take a break. Read a book for fun. Play some cards. Watch a movie. Maybe even go for a walk. Just have fun. And so some writing that isn’t all about my deep dark issues.
There’s an idea…