… the winding milestones of my identity exoskeleton unraveling…

Absolute Twisted Zero has a really beautiful post out there – Seeds of Change…

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Look closely. You see the winding milestones of my identity exoskeleton unraveling. Rituals hold me together while identity reconstruction is underway. Identity helps organize my Human Animal social behavior. Healthy routines replace some rituals. I change slowly with multi-sensory training.

Around the edges is a lot of light. I am growing out from the rituals of the Cult of One. A Book of Rituals is not Identity. A Cult of One breeds anti-social behaviors. I am a molting Human Animal.

Wrapped round the trauma of my brain injury is a tourniquet of panic. I found no identity repair manuals. I have lots of self-help books with no section on identity reconstruction for people like me. I am not eligible for identity transplant benefits.

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Read the whole post here…

Author: brokenbrilliant

I am a long-term multiple (mild) Traumatic Brain Injury (mTBI or TBI) survivor who experienced assaults, falls, car accidents, sports-related injuries in the 1960s, '70s, '80s, and '90s. My last mild TBI was in 2004, but it was definitely the worst of the lot. I never received medical treatment for my injuries, some of which were sports injuries (and you have to get back in the game!), but I have been living very successfully with cognitive/behavioral (social, emotional, functional) symptoms and complications since I was a young kid. I’ve done it so well, in fact, that virtually nobody knows that I sustained those injuries… and the folks who do know, haven’t fully realized just how it’s impacted my life. It has impacted my life, however. In serious and debilitating ways. I’m coming out from behind the shields I’ve put up, in hopes of successfully addressing my own (invisible) challenges and helping others to see that sustaining a TBI is not the end of the world, and they can, in fact, live happy, fulfilled, productive lives in spite of it all.

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