Steady on

Great North Forest Trail near to Marley Hill, Gateshead, Great Britain

Today was a good day. I kept on task and got things done, met with people, and made good progress. Learned and listened and followed through.

Quit thinking so much about the nickname. Who knows what else they’ll come up with? Can’t worry about it – just stay steady.

Had a talk with my new boss about watching the political landscape and not stepping in anything.

I need to step lightly and not let things mean what I come up with, myself. Take my lead from my boss and not invent meanings out of thin air.

This is important. My over-active brain that is trying to do all the right things is getting hung up, and I’m tired. I’m very, very tired. So, it’s a potent recipe for trouble.

Anyway, the folks who came up with the nickname may feel badly about doing it, so if I latch onto that, it may make matters worse. I think I’ll just leave it as it is, not get into it, and carry on as though it was the blip on the radar it really was.

One of the big things I need to always keep in mind is that we’re all just getting to know each other. I’ve worked in other situations, where it took about six months for me to be comfortable with people — and for them to be comfortable with me. These things take time, especially when folks are thin-skinned, as I hear some people at work can be. We’re all just people. What else do I expect?

I guess my goal overall is to let myself start each day from scratch. Not all paths in my life are attractive and well-kept. Not all encounters I have along the way are positive at first blush. But I need to keep to the high road and focus on the positive. Find the good in the people around me, and let them know I’m hear to help, not make their lives a living hell.

Peace is good.

So is progress.

Author: brokenbrilliant

I am a long-term multiple (mild) Traumatic Brain Injury (mTBI or TBI) survivor who experienced assaults, falls, car accidents, sports-related injuries in the 1960s, '70s, '80s, and '90s. My last mild TBI was in 2004, but it was definitely the worst of the lot. I never received medical treatment for my injuries, some of which were sports injuries (and you have to get back in the game!), but I have been living very successfully with cognitive/behavioral (social, emotional, functional) symptoms and complications since I was a young kid. I’ve done it so well, in fact, that virtually nobody knows that I sustained those injuries… and the folks who do know, haven’t fully realized just how it’s impacted my life. It has impacted my life, however. In serious and debilitating ways. I’m coming out from behind the shields I’ve put up, in hopes of successfully addressing my own (invisible) challenges and helping others to see that sustaining a TBI is not the end of the world, and they can, in fact, live happy, fulfilled, productive lives in spite of it all.

2 thoughts on “Steady on”

  1. Congrats on the new job. Sounds like folks are testing the waters, maybe even seeing how you’ll react to this nickname. That first impression and meeting new co-workers is an interesting time. Rock steady.


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