I’m still a little rattled after my fall. It’s a little bothersome, worrying about this, but I don’t want to make light of it, while at the same time not blowing it out of proportion. I had thought about calling my doctor, but for what — falling out of bed? How lame.
One of the things that makes it more difficult is this thought that I don’t really have the ability to self-assess. That my brain is going to tell me the wrong things about what’s going on, and I may either over-do the vigilance, or overlook something that’s important.
I don’t want to go to either extreme. So, I’m taking the middle ground, and I’m doing my utmost to just use common sense about things and not get all bent over stuff that happens.
I have been a little clumsier since my fall. But I think that can be chalked up to having been shaken up. I am also a little more off balance because I jammed my shoulder and my neck is sore and stiff in ways it isn’t usually sore and stiff. So, my balance is a little off. I’m also a little stressed – not only because of the fall, but because of work, as well. I’m coming down to the wire on this project, and there are a million little details to keep track of, some of which come up at the last minute and take everyone by surprise.
On top of that, my company is relocating 30 minutes farther from home in a new building with (possibly) new organizational structure. There’s lots of change going on, and I need to keep up.
I really need to keep up.
In a way, it’s helpful that so much is going on. I can’t imagine having a lot of time on my hands to sit around and fret about falling. I have to stay focused and steady, which is keeping my head from running away with me. It keeps me from thinking that my jangled nerves are a sign of neurological damage, that my balance issues are about my head, instead of my shoulders and indeed the whole muscular off-balance of my upper body. It keeps me from getting carried away and telling myself it’s all downhill from here.
Good thing… I just need to get on with it.