Okay, so I’ve moved to this new country. I’ve been here a while. And I’m starting to forget what it was like before. I’ve noticed this more and more over the past weeks and months – somehow, the years before my last TBI are a bit of a blur, and I’m having a harder time remembering what it was like to be “me” back then.
I don’t know if this is my memory going, or if it’s just me settling into my new life. Whatever the reason, it’s a little strange to be finding these holes in my memory. Or maybe the things I recall remembering weren’t that way at all.
I don’t know. There’s a lot I don’t know. I’m probably just tired, but I can’t quite remember who I used to be.
Who am I now?
I am a long-term multiple (mild) Traumatic Brain Injury (mTBI or TBI) survivor who experienced assaults, falls, car accidents, sports-related injuries in the 1960s, '70s, '80s, and '90s. My last mild TBI was in 2004, but it was definitely the worst of the lot.
I never received medical treatment for my injuries, some of which were sports injuries (and you have to get back in the game!), but I have been living very successfully with cognitive/behavioral (social, emotional, functional) symptoms and complications since I was a young kid. I’ve done it so well, in fact, that virtually nobody knows that I sustained those injuries… and the folks who do know, haven’t fully realized just how it’s impacted my life.
It has impacted my life, however. In serious and debilitating ways. I’m coming out from behind the shields I’ve put up, in hopes of successfully addressing my own (invisible) challenges and helping others to see that sustaining a TBI is not the end of the world, and they can, in fact, live happy, fulfilled, productive lives in spite of it all.
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2 thoughts on “Fine, so who am I now?”
What’s important is who you are now. You can’t change the past, but certainly you can attempt to make the best at the moment. Keep your mind free from clutter, and fill it with family moments and appreciation of the nature from our earth. Enjoy simple moments in life. Take care and stay safe.
Thanks – will do.