The whole dizziness thing is easing up, thank heavens, and things have calmed down quite a bit. In some ways they’ve calmed down, anyway.
I’m going full-steam on my projects, and it is demanding a lot of me. It’s a real roller-coaster with something new and unexpected happening on a regular basis. But that’s forcing me to cope and develop new ways of keeping myself functional and motivated, each and every day. I have a LOT to do, so I can’t waste a lot of time on head trips and second-guessing.
I’m still working out in the mornings — moving and stretching and lifting weights — and now I am incredibly sore from starting to do movements I haven’t done in many months. I haven’t worked out regularly in about a year, and it shows. The changes I’m making to my diet — cutting back on the bread and wheat-containing foods — seem to be paying off. I feel clearer, and I am also losing a few pounds, which is nice. And I can feel myself becoming stronger. I mowed the lawn this past weekend, and it was not nearly as rough as it’s been for me in the past. The mower was much more manageable — the mower hasn’t changed. I have.
Another thing I’m doing is connecting with motivational and inspirational Facebook pages. I have to be on FB regularly because that’s how I connect with people who are involved in my main project. The sad thing is, there are a ton of upset, unhappy people who are constantly agitating on FB. And most of the people I’m “friends” with love to sound off about something or other. It gets tiresome, reading all that chatter every time I log on. So, I’ve “liked” a bunch of motivational sites, so that their sayings are most of the things I see when I’m on FB. It’s good. And I get to share those things, to do my part to get folks to ease up and lighten up and direct their attention in a positive direction.
I’ve also still got my lists of notes going on. I’m nearing the end of filling up my most recent notebook, and my system is working pretty well. I have gotten better at not writing down every single little thing that needs to be done — and thus overwhelming myself — and I’ve gotten a lot better at just recording the essentials, and trusting that the details will become clear. If they’re not, I can make notes about them, but I don’t need to break everything down into step-by-step moment-by-moment diagrams of every single friggin’ thing that comes to mind. Yes, it’s very soothing to do that, at times. But ultimately, it just gets in the way.
So, that’s progress. Big progress, in fact. And I’m also doing better at gauging and managing my time. I’m going to have some more days of having the house to myself next week, so I’ll be able to do more project work that involves power tools and making a ton of racket and mess. As long as I have everything cleaned up by next Wednesday, I’m good. I’ve rearranged my schedule somewhat to free up time during those days, so I can make the most of my time.
That’s helping. It gives me something to look forward to and work towards, and it keeps me focused.
The other thing that keeps me going is knowing that I won’t have to be at this god-awful job much longer. Two months and a week is the max. The overlords who run the place from afar are just a nightmare to work with, and it’s a breath of fresh air to see hope in my future. I’m also thinking about how I’m going to structure my future work — building in some public transit commute time, so I can read and do other work while I’m in transit, instead of sitting in my car, frittering away the precious hours of my life on an annoying, stupid commute.
I’ll let someone else drive – and catch up on my reading.
It’s a plan — and the thought of it is just so delightful to me. It’s all good.