Worn OUT

Oh, man, I am so beat. This week has been a roller-coaster, and I’m wiped out. I still have a full day of work to go, and I’m not happy about it.

It’s been good, though. I’ve gotten a ton of important things done, and I’ve made excellent progress. I’ve been adjusting my mindset, as I go, disregarding all those little messages that keep going through my mind that cause me to doubt and question myself and my abilities.

Sometimes, it’s not about adding in more good things. Sometimes it’s about removing the bad things, and letting the good things just be. I waste a whole lot of time doing damage control from bad habits of thought and action. What if — just what if — I didn’t do/think some of those things, and didn’t have to spend the energy sorting out the fallout?

These are the kinds of things I’m figuring out, these days, and it’s hugely helpful. That, and reading books and watching videos about people who do extraordinary things.  That’s giving me a huge kick in the butt. And it gets me out of my “grandmaster funk,” as I call it.

Yeah, motivation and inspiration is turning out to be so important for me. I’ve always been into self-improvement and better performance, and I’ve always had a thing for a good motivational speech. Some of the turning points in my life have come after hearing or reading a motivational individual share their experience. I’ve done myself a huge favor by “liking” a bunch of Facebook pages that are all about motivation – especially sports motivation. They give me a much-needed kick in the a$$, and then I can pass them along to others.

They seem to appreciate it. I mean, who wouldn’t want to have some motivation when they get on FB? Keepin’ it positive feels pretty great.

I’m also hoping to get in a nap today. I’ve been stepping away around lunchtimes, now and then, to listen to my relaxation audio and rest. It’s been good even half an hour has a positive effect on me. Right now, all I can think about is sleeping, which is not good. I have an important meeting in half an hour, and I have a bunch of things I need to get squared away pronto.

So, I guess I’ll have that cup of coffee now. I had some strong tea, this morning, hoping to get myself off the whole coffee habit. But I’ve picked a bad day to do that.

Time to get that coffee and get into the day and see what I can find that moves me in the right direction.


Author: brokenbrilliant

I am a long-term multiple (mild) Traumatic Brain Injury (mTBI or TBI) survivor who experienced assaults, falls, car accidents, sports-related injuries in the 1960s, '70s, '80s, and '90s. My last mild TBI was in 2004, but it was definitely the worst of the lot. I never received medical treatment for my injuries, some of which were sports injuries (and you have to get back in the game!), but I have been living very successfully with cognitive/behavioral (social, emotional, functional) symptoms and complications since I was a young kid. I’ve done it so well, in fact, that virtually nobody knows that I sustained those injuries… and the folks who do know, haven’t fully realized just how it’s impacted my life. It has impacted my life, however. In serious and debilitating ways. I’m coming out from behind the shields I’ve put up, in hopes of successfully addressing my own (invisible) challenges and helping others to see that sustaining a TBI is not the end of the world, and they can, in fact, live happy, fulfilled, productive lives in spite of it all.

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