A little better each day

It happens from the inside. As it becomes plainly evident that something has changed… and it’s not changing back.

Each day, you get to know this “new you” a little better. And then, every now and then, you turn a corner and realize that the “you” you were expecting didn’t show up.

So you go back to getting to know yourself again. Sorta kinda like that movie “Groundhog Day”. Only this movie doesn’t have an ending. It just keeps going.

It’s no one’s fault, it just is. It’s not the sort of thing that helps to bitch and moan about. Sure, you can do that, but it doesn’t change anything.

And your body chemistry changes, strange things happen to your senses. You develop tough patches of skin on your arms and neck… and you aren’t nearly as fond of bright lights as you used to be.

Each day, you get up and go back to do it again. A little better each day.

Each day, you think, “Maybe this will be the day that — ” and then you forget what that “that” was going to be, because what IS has gotten the upper hand over “what should”.

It’s chilly tonight, and I smell like the varnish mist that sprayed back on me when I was trying to finish a piece of wood earlier today.

Tomorrow I will air myself out.


Author: brokenbrilliant

I am a long-term multiple (mild) Traumatic Brain Injury (mTBI or TBI) survivor who experienced assaults, falls, car accidents, sports-related injuries in the 1960s, '70s, '80s, and '90s. My last mild TBI was in 2004, but it was definitely the worst of the lot. I never received medical treatment for my injuries, some of which were sports injuries (and you have to get back in the game!), but I have been living very successfully with cognitive/behavioral (social, emotional, functional) symptoms and complications since I was a young kid. I’ve done it so well, in fact, that virtually nobody knows that I sustained those injuries… and the folks who do know, haven’t fully realized just how it’s impacted my life. It has impacted my life, however. In serious and debilitating ways. I’m coming out from behind the shields I’ve put up, in hopes of successfully addressing my own (invisible) challenges and helping others to see that sustaining a TBI is not the end of the world, and they can, in fact, live happy, fulfilled, productive lives in spite of it all.

2 thoughts on “A little better each day”

  1. Thanks. I actually haven’t been feeling that great, lately, but I’ve been keeping busy, so it gets my mind off things. I’m sure I’ll pay for it later, but right now I’m feeling pretty good about my chances.


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