Off to the new office

We’ll see what’s inside…

Well, this is pleasant. I woke up early today, and now I have even more time, because I have a shorter commute. The pressure is off, job-wise.

Elsewhere in my life, things are heating up a bit. My last remaining grandparent, who is over 100 years of age, is in failing health, and my parents think they will not last long. This grandparent has been the single-most strongest presence and role model in my life, and I would probably not be here without their example. We haven’t always seen eye-to-eye, and there were many years when we kept each other at a distance, but that’s all behind us now.

Now there is only love and respect. Time heals.

So, I may have a trip ahead of me later this week. I have some critical deadlines looming, so I have to have a backup plan, for sure. I need to organize things and make sure they are in order, so I don’t miss the important dates coming up. I feel good about where I’m at, and how I’m handling things now. I’m getting the hang of the scheduling we do, and it’s falling into place.

I just needed to go through out, have some sketchy experiences to make sure it all sinks in, and keep going.

I’m seeing my neuropsych later today, also. I have prepared for the meeting, collecting notes from my past week, because for the life of me, I cannot seem to remember — when I get to their office — what I wanted to talk about. I’ve put together a list of topics that are all in my head and area all factoring into my life right now, to make up my whole experience. I’m hoping that will help them understand my situation better, because what I end up talking about is just a very small, small piece of the whole picture for me, and how can I get help with what is really challenging me, if I can’t articulate it.

I’m tired of being upset and frustrated over the whole process, and I’m concerned that they think I’m in a different “place” than I really am. It’s not that everything is awful, or that I’m debilitated or disabled. I just have certain things that are really intruding in my life, and I need to figure them out — clearly and plainly, not in a roundabout way.

So, there it is. We’ll see how it goes. I get a little tired of the disconnects between how I’m feeling, how I describe my experience, and what others interpret from it.

And I’m doing something about it.

Onward.