Broken key – common theme

This may be me, later today.

So, the space bar on my keyboard is acting up. I will be typing along, and it will decide that it doesn’t want to work. And I’ll have to hammer on it a few times, to get it to work. How frustrating. I have to keep stopping to get it to work.

I will be typing along, and see that a space didn’t go between a number of words, so I stop and back up and put in the spaces. And then I’ve lost my train of thought, and I can’t remember exactly what I was going to write. 😐 How frustrating.It’s not like my brain does well keeping things in “RAM” memory in my head, anyway. But all these constant interruptions keep slowing me down even more, so by the time I’m done writing even a paragraph, I’m a bit frazzled and fried.

I was thinking that maybe it was because of my bum left right thumb (see? the interruptions have me so turned around, I’m getting my left and right confused, and that normally never happens). I have been having a lot of tremors and twitching in my left hand,especially my thumb. Maybe I have less strength and/or coordination in it, so it’s not hitting the space bar as hard as it should. It seems like it happens more when I am hitting the space bar with my right thumb. But it also happens with my left,so I think it may just be the space bar, period.

So, I have a number of choice:

  1. I can put on my static-grounding wrist strap and try to take my laptop apart and clean under the keyboard and see if the key is getting jammed on something.
  2. I can change how I type, slowing down and taking time to really hammer on the space bar each time I use it.
  3. I can just keep typing along and ignore the missing spaces between words, then come around a second time after I’mdone and put in the spaces after the fact.
  4. OR I can buy a new laptop.

Choice #1 is a little tricky. There are a lot of screws in the bottom of this thing, and I’m not sure I’m up for the ‘adventure’ of taking this thing apart and putting it back together.

Choice #2 is a no-go. I’ve tried it over the past few days, and it is terribly frustrating

Choice #3 is what I’m doing now, and it’s irritating. But it also gives me a chance to go back and revisit what I’ve written up, so that’s not necessarily a bad thing.

Choice #4 will probably be what I do — after I put in some extra hours next week to stash some cash. I need a new laptop, actually. And a new desktop. All the machines I have are is Windows XP, which is about 3 versions of Windows behind, and a lot of the programs that are available today just don’t work very well on XP. They crash or they take forever. I need a Windows 7 laptop and a Windows7 desktop. I’m not doing Windows 8, because I’ve seen it and I don’t like it. Windows 7 still works just fine, thank you.

This all seems like a common theme for me. Things go wrong — not huge things, but disruptive things that block me and keep my head in the wrong place. And I have to stop, slow down, re-do my work, etc. I forget things at work. I screw up and have to scramble. I am chugging along just fine… then I run into a roadblock and have to double back and rethink/redo my work. Argh! It’s so frustrating. It’s like nothing really flows. I have to keep pausing to adjust. And I can’t build up momentum.

I was reading a self-improvement book a few weeks ago, where the author was talking about how important momentum is — you need to get into a regular pace with things and get in a groove.And then you get carried along by the flow.  Maybe they do. As for me, I *think* I’m going along in the flow, making good progress, and then WHAM! I hit a speed bump or a pothole, and I have to stop and check myself, and make sure I didn’t screw things up permanently, before I can continue.

Like typing along — chug-chug-chug — and the space bar is not putting in spaces, so I keep stopping to fix the broken places as I go, and that completely screws everything up.

Frustrating, to say the least.

But I don’t need to solve that problem just now. I have a bunch of things to do that don’t involve a computer that I need to finish up today, and I’m feeling really good about them. I’m helping out some friends, and I’m doing some of my own things. And I’m going to take a walk before the day gets too crazy. I have a good feeling about just about everything I’ve got going today.Plus, my spouse is away on a business trip later today, so I will have 8 hours of uninterrupted focus time.

I love my spouse with all my heart, but alone-time in the house is a luxury I seldom get to enjoy. And it is heaven, to not have to make myself understood to anyone, not have to navigate other people’s emotional “stuff”, and just go about my business at my own pace.

Except… there’s the Super Bowl tonight.

Anyway, I’ve got the whole day ahead of me, and it’s good. It’s really, really good.

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Author: brokenbrilliant

I am a long-term multiple (mild) Traumatic Brain Injury (mTBI or TBI) survivor who experienced assaults, falls, car accidents, sports-related injuries in the 1960s, '70s, '80s, and '90s. My last mild TBI was in 2004, but it was definitely the worst of the lot. I never received medical treatment for my injuries, some of which were sports injuries (and you have to get back in the game!), but I have been living very successfully with cognitive/behavioral (social, emotional, functional) symptoms and complications since I was a young kid. I’ve done it so well, in fact, that virtually nobody knows that I sustained those injuries… and the folks who do know, haven’t fully realized just how it’s impacted my life. It has impacted my life, however. In serious and debilitating ways. I’m coming out from behind the shields I’ve put up, in hopes of successfully addressing my own (invisible) challenges and helping others to see that sustaining a TBI is not the end of the world, and they can, in fact, live happy, fulfilled, productive lives in spite of it all.

6 thoughts on “Broken key – common theme”

  1. I am a better person because of my brain injury and have gotten better in spite of what people think of me and my brain injury – Embrace Adversity – Have the Resolve to Get Better – Be Good to Yourself – Let Go and Move ON!

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  2. This reads like several of MY posts on the same or similar problems! It’s like I have a short in my brain when my assistive technology decides to become part of the problem instead of one of my much-needed work-around solutions.

    Sorry you’re frustrated, but thanks for posting this. I hate to admit it, but it actually makes me feel better that I’m not the only one who struggles to stay tracked through repeated technology fails.

    I have come to the conclusion that the ONLY logical explanation for the reality that tech toys don’t seem to want to work for me, FAR above the law of averages, is that I’ve offended some powerful witch or warlock who has put a twenty year tech-hex on me and my house.

    Maybe they hate you too?

    xx,
    mgh
    (Madelyn Griffith-Haynie – ADDandSoMuchMore dot com)
    – ADD Coach Training Field founder; ADD Coaching co-founder –
    “It takes a village to educate a world!”

    PS. I’m gonna’ backlink this to relative posts as I have time. I’ll ping you when each actually happens.

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  3. Well, some folks have a natural affinity for devices, while others don’t. I think I’ve actually got off pretty easily with this laptop, since It dates back to 2008, and the operating system (XP) first showed up in 2002. I think it’s just time for a new one.

    The thing about devices is that you have to think like they do, in order to get something useful out of them. That’s why people love Apple products – they are designed like people think, not the other way around. But there’s something about the familiar Windows systems that makes more sense to me. Guess it’s just how I’ve been trained.

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  4. I began with CPM, moved to MSDOS, then Windoze, and finally to MAC (because, as a touch-typist keyboarder, as long as I was going to be forced to mouse around, I might as well do it on a cleaner, faster graphics platform – i.e., less legacy code, fewer “inits” to get tangled, etc.)

    That last transition was a doozy! I didn’t find MAC “intuitive” at all.

    In my experience, once they’ve been around for at least two iterations, ANY platform makes assumptions about “how people think” based on “how they think on our platform” – i.e., “training,” as you say. The devil we know, etc.

    Take a year [essentially] “off” and boy-howdy!

    Apple is moving in a direction I don’t like, so I’m wondering if Windows is stable enough to warrant another look. My biggest hesitation is virus vulnerability (oh goodie, more to factor in when things stop working!)

    Until I am FORCED to buy another computer and must make the device/platform decisions, I’m staying where I am for a bit longer, and sticking with my tech-hex theory. I’m facing a learning curve no matter what I decide, and I’m already drowning in to-dos.
    xx,
    mgh

    PS. Sent a few pings – can’t tell if you have them enabled or not, but you are backlinked to at least 2 of my tech-rants.

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