So, I had a visit with my new neurologist, and we had a lot to cover. We didn’t have enough time to cover everything — obviously. But I think we made a good start. If this is going to be an ongoing medical relationship, then there will be plenty of more opportunity to discuss and trade information and work out how to deal with the things that need dealing with.
And how to figure out which things actually need dealing with, versus just being annoying little irritations that are inconveniences, first and foremost.
I need to get off on the right foot. And now that my regular PCP is probably out of the picture — I was told they were out for a medical issue, a few months back, and now I got a call from their office telling me I need to reschedule the physical that was scheduled for tomorrow. So, I think they might be sick. They haven’t been happy at that practice for years, and I think it just caught up with them.
I really liked that doctor — at the start. They were personable and treated me like a real person. They got lax at the end and didn’t follow through with me on test results, but I still liked them. Then again, it’s probably been time for me to find another PCP for some time. I need someone who’s actually engaged and can deal with me for the person I am. I’m not sure how I’m going to manage this, because I live about an hour away from decent hospitals, so what am I supposed to do if I come down with something or I just need to see them about something?
But I’m getting sidetracked. Back to the neurologist.
I took a list of my biggest symptoms and explanations of how they affect me, what makes them better, the severity of them, etc. My neuropsychologist had sent them an 8-page report on my history and status, and I gave them an additional 6 pages of my own information. I don’t know what my neuropsych sent to them, because they haven’t yet sent me a copy of the report, but they promised to, so…
The neuro was pretty personable, and I talked about the issues I’ve been having — the headaches that are keeping me from exercising… neck problems… the tremors in my right hand and thumb… the twitching in my left cheek. The tremors and twitching are pretty clearly “essential tremor” which is triggered by fatigue and adrenaline — check… and check. I’m usually fatigued, and I’m often adrenalized, especially when I have to keep going from being so tired. The two go hand-in-hand, and now that I understand that, I can take that off my “worry list”.
We talked about my balance issues — dysautonomia, and how it might have something to do with it. I need to look that up. It’s about the autonomic nervous system being out of whack, thanks to — sometimes — a clunk on the head. Considering I’ve gotten a bunch of concussions, I wouldn’t be surprised.
The neuro seemed quite concerned about the dysautonomia thing, and they suggested some tests. I’m really not up for that, just yet. First, the MRI and seeing a physiatrist.
So yeah, another MRI is in order. They want to check the nerves in my neck and cerebellum, as I recall (I think). They took a quick look at my imaging from 2009 (I took the CD with me and they reviewed it — with gusto), and they said my brain looks great(!). With the new headache issues emerging just within the past 18 months or so, they want to have another look.
And there’s that pineal cyst that nobody thinks is a big deal at all, but is worth checking on. As I recall, the size of it is not huge, but it’s also not tiny — it’s 4mm I think (I’ll have to check that), which is the size where people start to take notice. Originally I was told to have an MRI every 2 years to take a look at it and see if anything has changed. Getting contrast agent pumped into me every couple of years is not my idea of a good time — it makes me sick for a few days afterwards — and considering that 40% of the population is walking around with them, I really don’t feel the need to get tested that often.
But it will be interesting to see how my brain is doing, these days.
It will be really interesting to compare to my MRI from 7 years ago, and see how things are going. Maybe things are changing. I’m pretty sure they are. I suspect there’s a lot that’s changed for the better, actually. 2009 was near the beginning of my active recovery, and I’ve made incredible progress since then, so I’d like to see if there’s been a physical change to my brain — in gray matter or white matter or anything else. Then again, maybe nothing has changed. Or maybe things have gotten worse. Whatever. Whether or not it shows in the MRI, my life has improved dramatically.
I will probably get MRIs every 7-10 years for the rest of my life (perhaps more frequently as I age), just to see how things are going “up there”. I have a pineal cyst, so I don’t need to argue with folks or come up with some fancy reason for justification. The neurologist who ordered the MRI in 2009 told me to get imaged every 2 years, so there it is.
Anyway, we also talked about x-rays — looking at my back and neck. I’ve been in a bunch of car accidents and falls where I hurt my neck, so who knows what the heck is going on with me?
We talked about the sensitivities, too… just a little bit, because there was a ton of material to cover. Something about light and noise sensitivities being connected with … something I can’t remember. Maybe balance issues? That’s something I’d like to know more about, from a medical standpoint. I do know that I get better — less sensitive — when I am well-rested (which is seldom, actually). But I’d like to know the underlying mechanisms that contribute to it, so I can take some constructive action.
It’s all about constructive action. I haven’t gotten a lot of medical help in my life. Either the doctors have been idiots, or I haven’t done a good job of communicating. In the absence of competent medical help, I’ve just been going along with my life, living as best I can. I really needed help from a neuropsych to jumpstart my recovery, and having them to talk to each week has been a significant help. But I wonder if I really need their help in a neuropsychological capacity. It’s more for the sake of having someone to talk to who is just able to have a focused conversation with me without getting all weirded out by my tics and odd behavior.
People can be so unimaginative.
I’ll need to write more about my visit, so I don’t forget. I had a good recap with my neuropsych yesterday, and it’s going to be another week and a half, till we talk again, but that’s the best I can do for my scheduling.
I also need to write this down to recap for myself and get clear on my goals for care. I need to communicate to the neuro that I’m a “lifehacker” who first learns about the root causes of conditions and then crafts a personal approach to them that works for me and enables me to maintain a sense of autonomy and independence. If we end up working together over the long run, I need to level-set up front with expectations and such. Or that may not happen for the long run, because my great insurance will change at the end of this year, and I don’t know if I’ll be able to get adequate coverage to continue with either my neuropsych or neuro or both. So, I don’t have a lot of time to waste. Gotta make the most of it now, while I can.
Well, the day is waiting, and it’s time to get moving.