I’ve spent a fair amount of time thinking (and writing) about what it’s like to lose your Sense-Of-Self to TBI – click here to see posts I’ve written about this subject.
And it would be remiss of me, if I did not write (and think) about what can be done about it.
Because after over 10 years of being so very, very lost, having no idea where the person I was had gotten to, and being so far removed from any sense of who I was, and what I was about… I actually started to feel like myself again, this past spring.
It only took me 10 years and 5 months… but it’s here.
It’s tenuous, and some days I still wonder WTF, but I have to be honest and say, I’m feeling more like “myself” than I have in a very long time.
Maybe ever. After all, I’ve been recovering from repeat TBIs, since I was a kid.
So how do we do it? How do we get there?
For myself, consistency is the key. It sounds simple, I know, but there it is.
Doing the same things the same way, over and over and over again, until the wiring in my brain is re-routed to the newly familiar tasks, and it can do things by rote.
Of course, there are many thing I still have to really work at — my memory and resistance to distraction, among others — but for basic everyday tasks, and routine functioning… I’ve got an amazingly stable sense of where I’m at, and how I can get there repeatedly, each day.
I’ll be sharing more about this in the coming days and weeks. It wouldn’t be fair for me to withhold that information.
And here’s how I did with the drawing today. More on this later.