Wow – That Was Intense

Holy smokes. It”s Monday morning, and I’m now returning to the land of online living.

I’ve been “off the grid” for two days, cleaning my garage and basement, and while I did not get everything done, I made a significant dent in the mountain of material objects that have been sitting on shelves for over 10 years – some of the boxes had not been opened in over 20 years – sorting, culling, and repacking the things I know we will want to keep.

I did not get everything done that I hoped to, but I made a massive dent, and I’m pretty proud of myself.

For years, I have been unable to do this simple thing: clean out my basement. I had boxes upon boxes (sometimes empty boxes inside other empty boxes) that I could not seem to “crack”. It was too much for me – too overwhelming, too unsettling, too emotional. There is a lot of stuff down there from years gone by — better years, and worse years — and looking back on it all brings up a lot of emotion that used to paralyze me when I thought about it.

Now, I seem to have developed the ability to just put that aside and move forward. Really dig in and get the job done – clearing out old boxes full of old things, and transferring them to new containers that are mouse-proof. Looking through old possessions and deciding what I could get rid of, and what needed to stay. Just doing it. Getting it done. And being done with it, once and for all.

So, that was my off-the-grid weekend. A good one, all in all.

In the morning, the junk folks are coming to load up the detritis and haul it away.

And then it will be an all new day.

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Author: brokenbrilliant

I am a long-term multiple (mild) Traumatic Brain Injury (mTBI or TBI) survivor who experienced assaults, falls, car accidents, sports-related injuries in the 1960s, '70s, '80s, and '90s. My last mild TBI was in 2004, but it was definitely the worst of the lot. I never received medical treatment for my injuries, some of which were sports injuries (and you have to get back in the game!), but I have been living very successfully with cognitive/behavioral (social, emotional, functional) symptoms and complications since I was a young kid. I’ve done it so well, in fact, that virtually nobody knows that I sustained those injuries… and the folks who do know, haven’t fully realized just how it’s impacted my life. It has impacted my life, however. In serious and debilitating ways. I’m coming out from behind the shields I’ve put up, in hopes of successfully addressing my own (invisible) challenges and helping others to see that sustaining a TBI is not the end of the world, and they can, in fact, live happy, fulfilled, productive lives in spite of it all.

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