I’ve been doing a retrospective review of all the comments and feedback I’ve gotten over the years at this blog.
I started writing here in late 2007, after I realized what a huge role TBI had played in my life, how much it had cost me, and how it had influenced me — not for the better. I had been so confused and lost and turned around for so long, and I hated to think that others had the same experience as I.
I needed to do something about that.
I decided to put together a resource for others like me, who were struggling with hidden brain injury issues that no one seemed to understand, and who couldn’t get access to reliable medical and rehab care. I wanted to share what I’d found and provide some insight (and possibly answers) to folks who were struggling and needed to know some key things. I also wanted people to know that recovery from traumatic brain injury is possible, and that it isn’t the end.
At the start, the blog was a bit “clunky”. I was sort of a mess, to tell the truth. But I figured it made sense to just show it all, because that’s what happens sometimes with TBI. And my own experiences and ramblings might strike a chord with others who shared those same feelings.
As it turned out, it was the right thing to do. This blog has played an enormous role in my recovery, and so have all of you who have commented, offered feedback, called me on my B.S., and kept me honest. Seeing the readership numbers each day — even if it’s just a few — has really spurred my motivation. And hearing that what I’ve written echoes what others experience (and often cannot put into words), is a balm to my frazzled nerves.
I believe that each and every one of us has our own set of challenges. We never know what others are going through, although it may be very similar to what we’re experiencing. The world doesn’t always tolerate vulnerability, and so often we’re all expected to just “suck it up” and keep going.
I do believe that sucking it up is important. I, for one, can’t sit and stew in my own crap, day in and day out. I’ve got to keep moving, keep making progress, and I must never give in and give up. At the same time, we do need to have our pain recognized, our struggles identified, and our strengths validated. It’s all a process — and an important one at that. So this blog has enabled me to do a lot of that exploring, without having the rest of my life trashed by emotional lability and psychological dramas.
So, yes. This place has been a sort of refuge for me. And the folks who have joined me here have been most welcome and appreciated.
For all you say, for all you write, and even for all you think — even if you never write it down — thank you.