Okay, time to rewind a bit… my memory has been really failing me a lot, lately — moreso than usual — and I’ve been noticing it a lot more than usual. I don’t know if it’s because I have been more forgetful, or I’m just more aware of it. I suspect it’s because I’m more aware. At the same time, though, I have been misplacing things a lot — things I need to not misplace. My notebook with all my recent notes and tasks in it, for example.
On the other hand, my memory has been improving in other ways — I can remember short sequences of numbers and letters better than before. I’ve been practicing, so I think that’s been helping.
But this morning — for the first time in a long time, I couldn’t remember if I’d washed my hair while I was taking my shower. I washed my hair again, for good measure — then remembered that I already had.
So, I need to get back to the tools I’ve used before, to keep me on track. I’ve gone back to using a paper-based datebook, rather than my smartphone, for keeping track of things. I’ve been “winging it” for the past year or so, with just a smartphone to keep myself in line, and I don’t think it’s helped my memory. I also don’t like being dependent on an electronic device. I need to start keeping my notes in a notebook where I can see them and track them. I let a LOT of stuff slide over the past year, because things sucked at work, and I just didn’t give a damn. Now things are changing at work, and suddenly I feel like I can afford to give a damn again.
That’s nice. But it also means I have to step up my game and get myself back on track.
Which I will.
I need to not be complacent, not sit life out and say, “It’s out of my hands, so screw it.” I need to get involved in my own life again – and so I shall.
Keep track of things I’ve done, the things I need to do, the things I haven’t gotten done yet.
And just do the things I set out to do.
It’s not terribly difficult, if I think about it — it just takes a certain sort of technique, which I once had. I’ve done it before, so I need to do it again.
First step of the day (after posting this): Find the notebook I got for this year, and write down the things I need to do, that I had written in the old notebook that I lost over the weekend. And get on with living my life again, like it’s really mine.
Because it is.