On the up-swing

Up, up and away…

I’m gearing up for the coming week. I’ve gotta get my game face on, because my boss’es boss is gunning for bear. They took a look at the work I’ve been helping to oversee, and they’re not pleased. “Dismayed” is the word they used, I believe. Ah, well, I’m working on this not-getting-my-knickers-in-a-twist-when-others-are-pissed-off-at-me thing. We’ll see how it works out tomorrow.

The thing about this situation is, I’ve been warning folks about the problems that caused this “dismaying” condition for well over 18 months. I’ve been warning folks that the things they’re doing here (technically speaking) are harming things over there (logistically speaking). And I’ve been trying to convey the importance of staying engaged with certain (remiss) team members who are technically in charge of the screw-up (under my careful eye, of course), but are not technically proficient enough to do what needs to be done.

Not sure if that makes any sense to you, but it has to do with a mess of a content management system that is so convoluted, nobody can remember how to use it if they don’t use it every single day… combined with short-staffed people in distant lands who literally don’t have the permissions or the ability to fix the things they’re supposed to be fixing, let alone the time to hunt down all the problems.

So, where does that leave us?

In spin-land! Yes, indeed, I’m going to be spinning this in a positive light, focusing on the pro-active possibilities and thanking my boss’es boss for taking the time to even notice that stuff which they have — time and again — told me to not spend too much time on.

Seriously, I’ve been told to back off from helping folks out and I’ve been told I’ve “given them enough love – now pay attention to this other stuff” and as a result, things have gone to pot. I’ve tried to be clear about the downsides of neglect, but until the past month or so, nobody was paying much attention, nor did they think it mattered.

Until the home office (which is not in the USA, by the way) started paying closer attention to us… and now all hell is breaking loose.

Pity. Oh, well. It does make me intensely uncomfortable to not excel at every single thing I undertake, but this battle is not one that I’ve had much hope of winning, for oh about 2 years running, now. It’s been a political hot-potato, this piece of the corporate puzzle, and now the heat’s getting turned up.

How I would love to say “I told you so” — but instead, I’m going to be ultra-smooth and play it cool and work on the solution, rather than the problem. I have a feeling that my boss’es boss is going to be looking for a scapegoat, someone to assign blame to, and I have a big target on me, right now. But that’s not where I’m going to put my attention and energy.

I think I’ll make up my own interpretation about all this.

Everybody else is, so why not me, too?

Author: brokenbrilliant

I am a long-term multiple (mild) Traumatic Brain Injury (mTBI or TBI) survivor who experienced assaults, falls, car accidents, sports-related injuries in the 1960s, '70s, '80s, and '90s. My last mild TBI was in 2004, but it was definitely the worst of the lot. I never received medical treatment for my injuries, some of which were sports injuries (and you have to get back in the game!), but I have been living very successfully with cognitive/behavioral (social, emotional, functional) symptoms and complications since I was a young kid. I’ve done it so well, in fact, that virtually nobody knows that I sustained those injuries… and the folks who do know, haven’t fully realized just how it’s impacted my life. It has impacted my life, however. In serious and debilitating ways. I’m coming out from behind the shields I’ve put up, in hopes of successfully addressing my own (invisible) challenges and helping others to see that sustaining a TBI is not the end of the world, and they can, in fact, live happy, fulfilled, productive lives in spite of it all.

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