Well, this has been an interesting couple of weeks. I totally screwed something up at work, and I’ve been working overtime since the beginning of February to make it right.
It’s been so wrong, it’s been mind-boggling. How could I have screwed up that badly? Huh. It’s been a long time since I’ve done anything this egregious. In fact, I’m not sure I ever have.
But there’s a first time for everything.
Seriously, I’m surprised it didn’t happen sooner. But it was bound to happen, eventually, under the current conditions:
- Limited sleep
- Additional travel
- Intense pressure
- No management support
- Uncooperative coworkers who don’t keep me in the loop
The whole thing is really messed up, and I ended up at the forefront of it all. The good/bad news is that there are more pieces of this Monster Project coming not far behind that will have the same kinds of problems that my part of the project did.
So, I won’t be so alone, anymore.
Not that it’s any consolation.
I was pretty torn up about the whole situation, last week. Wrecked. But I’ve acclimated to this particular failure, and now… well, I just don’t care. What it means for my future… don’t care.
They’re going to re-org us, anyway.
Some people dislike my boss, and a lot of other people dislike my boss’es boss. And chances are, they’ll interpret this failure of mine as a failure of leadership (which would be nice, to not have to take the fall for a broken system). Everybody knows I’m smarter than the person who screwed up, last week. Something else must be wrong.
Well, anyway, it’s Saturday night, and I’m exhausted. Had a full day today, after a full week. Tomorrow might give me a break. We’ll see. I’m tempted to just stay in bed all day, but that will never work. I often think about doing that, and then 20 minutes after I wake up, I can’t take just lying there anymore. So, I get up. And get out. And put one foot in front of the other.
Some days, that’s all you can do.
It’s really good you have the ability to process why something happened and if you can how to fix it. And I’d its likely to happen again so that can be avoided. Good luck! Cheers,H
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